Day 27 This month, in great detail
Ok, no I don’t want to write about my month in great detail. Its boring, and frankly I don’t think anyone will read it. So, instead I give you this….
Sometimes I just write whatever comes to mind, its called ‘free association writing’ I used to have to do it in college and high school writing classes, but now I find it helps; more than when I was forced to do it. Here’s what I wrote tonight, inspired by old Italian cinema and the movie, Nine.
Watch this first, then read. Warning: Adult Content
I want a full day at the spa, mani, pedi, the whole works. I want to feel like everyday I am living in an Italian movie from the 60′s. I want to live all consuming, all knowing, powerful, radical but never apologizing. I don’t feel like I live life the the fullest. I wish everyday could look like a Polaroid picture from the past.
I want to live in Europe for a year, I really want to know myself. I want to be a more fabulous version of myself. I want to sip coffee in an Italian cafe and love with no excuses. I want all consuming, all knowing, passionate, romantic, crazy love. The kind that gives you butterflies in your stomach. The kind they make movies and cheesy romance novels about.
All women want this, we just know better than to admit it. The older we get, the more ‘settled’ we get. Settled in our love lives, settled with our careers, settled with our homes, locations, neighborhoods. I’m in a bit of a funk right now, I don’t know how to get out of it without a plane ticket, many strong drinks and a wild affair with an inappropriate lover.
Or, maybe it’s nothing a good vintage photo shoot can’t fix. Who wants to model? and also lend me an amazing 20′s style house to shoot in?
Images courtesy of Vogue